Scott, I lost my sister Rachel to suicide in 2001. It hurts to this day. The pain fades and I have tried to focus on all of the positive things she brought to my life and to our family. I feel empathy and sorrow for those left behind, especially the children. As a family you can find comfort in one another. There will be a time to be angry with those complicit in her action but for now take time to remember all the good she brought to the earth. My deepest condolences are with you.